i muse and amuse

One year has passed by, and I have written nothing over here. Lots of things changed in and around me and still it’s going on, the change. Still... I don't want to turn back and inquire on what kept me that damn serious and busy, because a lot has changed. Well I had promised myself to write for me and lo, it's May and there is no other month in the whole year that I would love to write.

The month of May is always special for me, coz it's my month. I was born on May. A couple of my friends share their b'days with me on this month and this is the only time in the whole year when I actually demanded for a gift from my Mom! Well this b'day was special for me. In fact all my b'days have been special to me, but this time, my mother forgot to send me gifts, but someone else had send gifts with utmost care and love. She is not just someone else, but the lady in my life. Well, my parents had gifted me her, and she had send my (only) bday gift this year! Did I feel great, good or anything? I felt nothing, because I missed that amusement and feelings that i used to get over years on the day. When my mom used to gift me goodies I used to wish her "Happy Birthday", because we never celebrated her birthday. The one lady who put her heart, soul and everything materialistic and élan vital for her family all through her life had none celebrating her b'day but was keen in celebrating ours. So I celebrated her birthday on mine. I got the greatest and noblest lady in my life on that day. If it the fear of losing someone's love and care in life it is you my dear Mom, who realy startles me at sleep by waking away from me. It's your unseen and ever felt presence that makes me, the real me and keeps me moving. Be with me ever as my shielder, that's my only prayer!